Taking a break from my pre-event headless chicken scurry (tm) to make a public (that never happens) post.

I'm actually having a lot of difficulty putting this into words so I'm really sorry if it sounds stupid or contrite or anything else/

Someone I have never met before in my life died yesterday... but as someone who has lost a person extremely dear to them, I have something of an inkling what britgeekgrrl is going through.

I found out this morning from a couple different people and I haven't ever met britgeekgrrl or her late husband dancingshaman... but I do remember when Valerie died, in vivid detail. No, we weren't married. No we weren't "like that," she was actually engaged and we were just friends (and dude I totally am not into girls that way)... but she was like a hero to me. Someone I looked up to, I wanted to be like her - still want to be like her - and the day she died a part of me went with her. I'm better now, but I'll never actually get over her being gone, you never do when someone you love that much is taken away from you.

No, I haven't ever met these people, but if I can help anybody in their time of grief - to help them get through what I know they must be feeling - I'll do whatever is in my power.

There's been a fund started to help pay for the funeral and medical bills, which I know must be extensive (thanks, cancer) and furthermore, a community here on LJ - britgeek_love - has been started as an effort to raise those funds. You can list items you've made or own for sale or auction, and the proceeds will be paid into a paypal account for britgeekgrrl. I don't really have the money to be donating or buying outright, but I consider myself a bit handy with needle and thread so I've put an auction for a custom regency style gown in the style and color of the winner's choice up in an effort to lend a hand. You don't have to bid a lot, or if you'd like to list something it doesn t have to be anything big or expensive. Every bit helps.

Here's the link to my auction http://community.livejournal.com/britgeek_love/3527.html and you can click the community link above to join the community, list your own auction, and browse the other listings.

And in the words of so many before me : Fuck. Cancer.